pieces of endurance

I lack a soft tongue. No no, my tongue is harsh, so harsh that it often cuts through my jaw right down my lungs. It won't help when I soak it with smokes and milk. Neither does biting on it works. Over and over again I try to soften it up, even chewing it down to feed the hunger. But the next day I would wake up with it sticking out and piercing through my pillow. Now I just try to hold my tongue, so as to hurt less.